Showing posts with label Black Hole. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Black Hole. Show all posts

Friday, June 28, 2013

Darkness At The End Of Fall

Without leaves, tree branches glisten from late November rain
reflecting an empty light from the gray sky on the dead grass below

unshaven men in dirty clothes muddy their tattered shoes leaving old cars
soaked litter lies hopelessly where the wind draped it weeks ago

somehow the crows locate calmly-moving death and gather like huge flies
off in the muffled distance, an empty freight train squeals

muzzle frozen in a grimace a dead dog bloats down in the brown grass swale
the dark evergreen casts no shadow as a church bell strikes off noon

cold floors and dark closets await behind the dirty windows
rusting metal appears where the weedy shrubs long ago lost their leaves

naked lightbulbs hang dim from bare cords in moldy stooping-low basements
old pipes groan all night yet bring but very little dry and brittle heat

the light gives up completely in what seems like early afternoon
the muffling darkness grows stronger as it slows life every day

the mud grows hard in the morning after the puddles have skimmed with ice
the sun shines wanly an hour a week then quickly disappears

the nights are absent moon and stars beneath a low gray ceiling
colored lights are used to try and ward off the gathering gloom

cars idle inside steamy clouds of their own wastes and the people stay indoors
now the old, sick or weak fall prey to the first wave of infections

brown and rain-soaked dead leaves molder in every corner
lifeless flower beds sadly mock us with their current promise

sleep increases with the length of night and tiredness overtakes us all
there is little joy upon awakening in the gray and damp and cold

the lakes move steadily towards freezing and look duller than the skies
far off dogs bark away the dark hours in their lonely solitude

a howling wind springs up to freeze the rain upon the pavement
women shiver and grow pale as their skin dries to thinnest parchment

And castoffs walk the streets alone, absorbed in careful examination of the darkness

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Who knows why I could not listen



who knows who I might have been
if someone would have spoken and I could have listened
who knows what I could have discovered
if I could have found myself

who knows where I would have journeyed
for had I even found a clue, I still would have feared to travel
who knows if I ever even came of age
since I always worshiped only youth

who knows why I did all those things I now must regret
it simply would not matter, if only they still made sense today
who knows how I poisoned every good opportunity
if I had really tried, I could not have done it any better

who knows who I might have worked with
if I did not always keep anger so close at hand
who knows what I could have become
if that blackness had not dwelt so deep inside

who knows where I would have settled
if I were not forced to flee myself so often
who knows when I might have slowed down
if I had not given myself up as very broken

who knows why I did not listen
if I ever even thought of that, I did not pay attention
who knows how I grew so tired
if I never really worked too hard at all

who knows who could have helped me on my way
if I was not sure where I was going
who knows what I was thinking
if I always thought I never had a clue

who knows where I would have stopped
if reality had not at last got in my way
who knows when I stopped living for the future
if I never stopped trying to forget my past

who knows if the doors would still have stopped opening
if I had not let them hit me as I left again, in the past
who knows how I was mistaken for one of the living
if I was the walking zombie I knew inside

who knows why I felt so empty
if I really was as full of shit as I believed
who knows how I stayed alive throughout the endless years
if I thought my life had ended so very long ago

who knows who I might not have brought to tears
if I could have just felt myself in her place
who knows what remains behind
if I come from a past that was always lived for today

who knows where I finally saw myself
if I was always running, and never looking back
who knows when I started trying just to slow down
if I now go downhill so fast, quite out of control

who knows why I act like such a macho
if I know I am a chicken-shit disgrace
who knows how much time I should not have wasted
if I wished to age without regrets

who knows who might have helped this boy
if I had not been too much of a man to ask
who knows what I might have heard
if I could have stilled those inner voices

who knows where I picked up so many wrong ideas
if I would not listen to anyone at all
who knows when I first looked up and saw the game was over
if I still appear to strive to win

who knows why I thought we were somehow different
if I just look around at all the things we’ve done
who knows how often I started over
if I am still so very close to the beginning

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Black Hole

A darkness so powerful that it swallows all incoming light which can never escape
I spin around its gaping, beckoning but absolutely empty center like some doomed spiral galaxy
So that is fracked because this is broken and therefore so am I and thus it all makes a tortured sense
And actually I don’t care because nothing makes any difference, so it cannot really matter

More than any simple sadness, it is a hole deeper than we can fathom and as dark as empty space
It is the wide maw of an oncoming and inescapable, empty and unconscious forever
Shortly, these tiny, ego-driven moments will be vaporized into some blind and ultimate equality
Every gesture futile, all struggles useless, each gain pointless - given the looming, infinite backdrop

Pathetic and foolish to dwell upon, yet so overwhelmingly puerile that it cannot simply be ignored
Every direction leads to a dead end, all the doors are locked but, nonetheless, lead to empty rooms
The past was wasted and useless, the future is pointlessly repetitious - so it’s all so very hopeless
There is simply nowhere to hide and all their bright fantasies evaporate as I enter my own Black Hole